How come?

How come every time I wake up in the "middle of the night" it's around 01:30 am, 02:30 AM, sometimes 03:30 am? Last night, not tonight, but last night, I had a disturbing dream. I dreamed I was meandering through a rather empty, somewhat vaguely threatening, mall, with various spots of "ill repute," that I was trying to avoid. I was trying to get out. That was the drive I felt - I had to get OUT of there. Suddenly Carl, ex-number 1 of 4, showed up, going with me, helping me. We got out. Then we were in the parking lot, and I was meandering around this parking lot, which had lots of cars in it, even though the mall was almost empty of any people, and I was looking for my car, with Carl helping me. But my car was my 1984 (85? 86? Not sure!) Nissan Sentra. It was a little "boxy" car, blue. It was, in fact, the car I owned when I met Carl, and one he trashed. I woke up, from that dream, having never found my car. Tonight, I had another dream, it was less complex. I dreamed that some kind of alien, or spirit, was being benevolent to me, looking kindly on me, although what it was, and what this meant, I don't know. I dreamed that it made me some kind of paper bag mask (like the old kind of paper bags we used to have from grocery stores), and this was supposed to be some kind of act of kindness, almost a loving thing, but there was an undercurrent. A vague feeling of something not right. A vague feeling that this alien, this spirit, whichever it was, could not really be trusted, but I had to go along with it, at the moment. I felt that if I did not, it could turn ugly. I woke up. It was, no surprise, 02:30 AM. My reaction, "I have to stay up from now until beyond 04:30 AM!" I felt it. I've read that these are the hours our brain has chemicals in our sleep that spike, and the most likely time of alien abductions 02:30 AM to 04:30 AM. It's of no comfort to me, that in this list http://www.crystalinks.com/abduction.html I can find several things that are applicable to me. I edited the list to show the ones I connect with. Possible Signs That You Have Been Abducted Have a memory of having a special place with spiritual significance, when you were a youngster (This IS true, but it was not negative. It was a visit to the Biblical Gardens in the Wisconsin Dells when I was a child, and I ran up to a statue of Jesus with little children around him, and it had the quote about letting the little children come unto him because of such is the kingdom of heaven. I felt a deep penetrating warm glow that I could not explain, that I have only felt one other time, as an adult.) Fear or anxiety over the subject of aliens or UFOs (Yes. One friend suggested I do hypnotic regressive therapy, to find out if there's more than the one abduction I know of, and I said no, the very idea of digging further terrifies me.) Fear of being kidnapped or abnormal constantly monitoring of your surroundings (Less severe than in the past, but to be frank, still haunting me at night, in the dark, and has, for years, decades. It started after that abduction I remember.) Insomnia or sleep disorders which are puzzling to you (I never thought about it until now, but this all started living here on this land where it happened.) Paralyzed in bed with a being in your room (Been there, done that, but it was terrifying. The presence was sheer evil, hooded. I could not see into the hood, but sensed I did not want to. It literally blocked my doorway of my bedroom, but I was totally paralyzed. I couldn't even cry out, with my voice.) Dreams about seeing UFOs, being inside UFOs, or interacting with UFO occupants (The abduction comes of as a dream.) Feeling of being watched much of the time, especially at night (Bingo) Beams of light outside your home, or come into your room through a window (This is how the abductions started. I thought it was headlights, and thought "Someone's here," but that was instantly followed by the worst terror I have ever felt.) Hearing unexplained physical noises (I don't even want to talk about this one lest it starts up again. I've heard a few things this week always at night in the dark.) Missing or lost time (I have frequently "woke up" driving down a road, time passed, wondering where I was, disoriented. The irony of this was I was on my way to/from work, and usually got there on time because I "woke up" well down the road by many miles. I used to think I was just exhausted and "zoned out" but it didn't make a lot of sense.) Compelled to drive or walk to an out of the way or unknown area (More than once.) Strange humming or pulsing sounds, and you could not identify the source (Bingo.) A strong "marker memory" that will not go away (i.e.: an alien face, an examination, a needle, a table, a strange skinny baby (Alien face to my right, me on a table, a lightning fast injection in my arm, and I woke up in bed, daylight, terrified, my arm hurting, aching, just life with a flu shot, for 3 days.) DNA genetic encodings activated - increased psychic abilities (My ability to read Tarot cards, and my ability to experience several kinds of clairvoyance http://www.psychicchatsonline.net/types-of-clairvoyance-psychic-abilities/ all started here, and come to think of it, after the abduction.)

Why did the chicken cross the road?

Reasons I am upset about Obama's "healthcare" reform

As SENATOR Obama he's on record as FOR Single Payer. As CANDIDATE Obama he's on record for Medicare-For-All. As PRESIDENT Obama he's on record for "Public Option," which he dropped SO fast that NONE of us ever found out what it REALLY meant. THEN he was for "insurance cooperative" parroting RepubliCONS neocon lies that it would "save" us money - I have a "cooperative" for electricity, and a "cooperative" forInternet (they also hold landline phone and cable TV, those two I have OFF however), and I can tell you that my bills are in NO way AT ALL cheaper than YOURS. It's just that I'm TOO RURAL for BIG companies to invest out here, so the cooperatives is ALL that I have. EVERY time the Republicans screamed, stomped, shrieked, howled, lied, threw temper tantrums, Obama instantly virtually got down on his knees practically sniveling for their approval over and over almost whining "Bipartisan!" despite them REPEATEDLY virtually RIPPING his face off. One cannot help but wonder WHERE IS HIS SPINE? I WOULD have voted for him - as opposed to John "Bomb, bomb bomb, bomb bomb Iran" McCain and Sarah "Drill baby, drill" Palin, in a heartbeat, but I was sick and could not vote that day. Regardless, I am sorely disappointed. I have even told him so at their web site, and of course got NO answers.

Aging

Observations on Growing Older ~Your kids are becoming you...and you don't like them...but your grandchildren are perfect! ~Going out is good. Coming home is better! ~When people say you look "Great"... they add "for your age!" ~When you needed the discount, you paid full price. Now you get discounts on everything... movies, hotels, flights, but you're too tired to use them. ~You forget names .... but it's OK because other people forgot they even knew you!!! ~The 5 pounds you wanted to lose is now 15 and you have a better chance of losing your keys than the 15 pounds. ~You realize you're never going to be really good at anything .... especially golf. ~Your spouse is counting on you to remember things you don't remember. ~The things you used to care to do, you no longer care to do, but you really do care that you don't care to do them anymore. ~Your husband sleeps better on a lounge chair with the TV blaring than he does in bed. It's called his "pre-sleep". ~Remember when your mother said, "Wear clean underwear in case you GET in an accident"? Now you bring clean underwear in case you HAVE an accident! ~You used to say, "I hope my kids GET married... Now, "I hope they STAY married!" ~You miss the days when everything worked with just an "ON" and "OFF" switch.. ~When GOOGLE, ipod, email, modem ... were unheard of, and a mouse was something that made you climb on a table. ~You used to use more 4 letter words ... "what?"..."when?"... ??? ~Now that you can afford expensive jewelry, it's not safe to wear it anywhere. ~Your husband has a night out with the guys, but he's home by 9:00 P.M. Next week it will be 8:30 P..M. ~You read 100 pages into a book before you realize you've read it. ~Notice everything they sell in stores is "sleeveless"?!!! ~What used to be freckles are now liver spots. ~Everybody whispers. ~Now that your husband has retired .... you'd give anything if he'd find a job! ~You have 3 sizes of clothes in your closet ... 2 of which you will never wear. ~~~~But old is good in some things: old songs, old movies, And best of all, OLD FRIENDS!! Love you, "OLD FRIEND!" Send this on to other "Old Friends!" and let them laugh in AGREEMENT!!! It's Not What You Gather, But What You Scatter That Tells What Kind Of Life You Have Lived!

Oy! Memories! MJ's "Leave Me Alone" from the 80s

On jump-starting the economy

The solution is not to credit. Post WWII "up" economy buying power was not built on credit cards. Credit? Yes. Cars, houses. But even in 60s credit cards (pre-VISA card) belonged to a few businessMEN, and NOT to women. Wrong, yes, but fact. Point - economy was not credit card driven. Outside of big credit for houses, cars, etc., things were saved for, bought on lay-a-way, which still exists, by the way. How hard is it to pay for something you want badly enough in 3 months, without interest, with no reference to your credit, and no bad mark on your credit if you "default"! You get money you paid back, but they keep the "fee" you paid upfront, if you do that, and put it back on the sale rack. Drawback - things reduced on sale usually get a 2 week lay-a-way. Plus - you can pay any amount at any frequency so long as you meet a minimum agreed-upon amount monthly. I remember my late mama buying, on credit card, and said, confused, "What did people do before credit cards?" Then it came to her, "Of course! They laid-a-way!" I told her "Guess what, mama! It still exists, today!" She was shocked, "Richway, K-Mart, Belk. They all do 3 months." She asked the clerk at the register, and she confirmed, yes, they still had lay-a-way. Mama was flabbergasted that it was not being used much and that she'd forgotten about it.

I am $79.95 poorer, but....

Well, I am $79.95 poorer, but at least the refrigerator got a clean bill of health, for now. The man checked it thoroughly, and confirmed what I suspected: it started behaving again (late last week, a day or two after I phoned in for the repair man to come), before he got here. It was doing exactly what it was supposed to do. At first, he thought not, because the freezer wasn't at zero F (-17.78 C), but was floating around 32 F (0 C). Then he realized it had just slipped into its "defrost mode" before he got here. So, he watched it for a while and found it went in & out of that just fine. He checked it out thoroughly, and found no signs of problems, leaks, etc. The only "things" he found were a clogged freezer drain, which he flushed for me, and that it's nearly empty, and he pointed out that promotes inefficiency. I assured him, as soon as my money is in (due today), that can and will change. He also told me what to look for, how to know if a compressor goes, and how/where the "off" switch is, which I did not know. I told him that was good to know, incase it started doing things it wasn't supposed to do. He agreed. However, he did give me some tentative bad news that was definitely unwelcome. I was just about to ask him what the average lifespan of a refrigerator from that era was, as it is 11 years old, when he volunteered the information: 10 to 15 years. So, he said, at 11, mine was definitely on it's final run, but not having problems - yet. He also explained the kind of things that would be worth fixing on it (fans, seals, etc.) and the kinds of things not worth fixing on it (compressors). In the former case, he said calling him would work, but in the latter case, I would be better off buying a new one. SIGH! Yea, right! Well, all I could tell him was that it had better hold until I get my credit card paid down so I can get one then if I need one, etc.